Our home has been hit with illness more than I can recall this winter. A notebook in my office nook is now filled with dates that coughs and fevers began, times meds were administered, my emotions for the day, and of course prayer requests and praises.
Somedays I would write a chapter book detailed report of the children’s snot colors and sound of their coughs and other days I would simply put..
“husband has fever…me..I’m exhausted. Lord help.”
I know many other families can relate to our rollercoaster of emotions these illnesses have brought along with them. My hope is the families who have struggled these last few months would receive rest for their weary souls, but even if this isn’t the case, my friends, God is still good and is working all things out for those who love Him.
Christmas was a blur, but that’s okay. Jesus still came. He died. He rose. He reigns. He lives. He is coming again soon. We must be ready. Sick or well. He will return. I’m ready, but I want all my loved ones to be as well. Regardless. The Lord knows. I won’t question His ways. I however must tend joyfully to the work He has called me to.
As I have laid in bed these last few weeks and gazed up at the ceiling in exhaustion, I close my eyes and remember Jesus words He has written on my heart.
“Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble at heart and you will find rest for your soul.”
My Dear Jesus. I’m sorry I grumble in this flesh. I have faith in You and in what You have accomplished and what is still to be fulfilled by You. However, all too often my mind is on the things of this world and not on You and Your eternal kingdom.
“Make unto me a clean heart oh Lord and renew a right Spirit within me.”
As I was driving to get my daughter from her volleyball practice this morning, a beautiful song came on the radio that our Worship Band leads us in often at church.
“All throughout my history
Your faithfulness has walked beside me
The winter storms made way for spring
In every season, from where I’m standing.”
In every season. Wow. So much truth. Not just the physical seasons we encounter each year we go round the sun, but each season the Lord sees us through while we are here. Our Youth. Adolescents. Adulthood. Marriage. Motherhood. Whatever season, His faithfulness far surpasses our understanding.
He leads me besides still waters and oh my how He refreshes my soul. I must however be willing to come to Him to drink and indeed see my well is dry without Him. He came to give all who would believe in Him water that will never run dry. That which will quench your thirst not only here, but most importantly, for all eternity.
I rest in this moment knowing this promise. You are faithful Lord.
This winter storm I’m in will truly make way for spring or eternal bliss. Either way, it’s hope that carries me through!
So here I am, picking out what to plant in our spring garden. Dreaming about digging my hands deep into the dirt and the kids running barefoot. Also, thinking about buying a dairy cow. Who knows?
Oh my friends, there is joy to be found while we are here. May we continue patiently on the path the Lord has set us on knowing He went ahead to prepare the way.